I've learnt over the last few years that when my insomnia strikes again, it's because I'm having trouble switching off, hell that's why this blog was born. By putting down into writing the crap floating around my head, I was able to focus better and relax, which meant I could sleep.
So why can't I switch off tonight, it could be the weather, it's been raining all day which in itself doesn't bother me, I love listening to rain, but tonight the wind has come up, not a gentle breeze, the type of wind that rips limbs from trees, I'm so not a fan of winds like these. But I don't think it's that.
It's the last day of school holidays today and I will admit I'm a little anxious about my boy returning to school tomorrow, I wasn't entirely happy with some of the friends he had made last term or the choices he had made, so that's floating around the back of my mind.
I know I'm nervous, tomorrow I have a stall at a local women's business expo, I'm hoping to sell some of my products and make new connections, but I'm doing my usual of second guessing if I'm good enough. Must repeat to myself, I have worked hard and I deserve success.
I'm worried about a family member in hospital, even though I know they are getting the best possible care and I'm worried about a friend who is in a very dark place at the moment. When someone is so down and depressed there is only so much we can do, I know that from both sides of the coin, hopefully I was able to help just a tiny bit tonight, to give a small amount of perspective, being supportive and really listen can sometimes make all the difference, at least that's what I choose to believe.
Well that has helped a little, it's amazing how organizing ones thoughts can help with the switching off mechanism, so now it's time to put down the electronics and practice some of the relaxation techniques I was taught, I've got nothing to lose. Goodnight hopefully lol!!
